"Do this in memory of me": Reflections from 3 of Rwanda's church memorials
by GABRIELLE SPEAR on FEBRUARY 27, 2014 · LEAVE A COMMENT


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"I am the un-missionary…beginning each day on my knees, asking to be
converted. Forgive me, Africa, according to thy multitude of mercies."
- The Poisonwood Bible, by Barbara Kingsolver
"HOW LONG HAVE you known the Lord?" a young parishioner asks me after
my first Sunday service at my host family's church. I just explained
to church members why I'm in Rwanda. "East African Politics," I said,
because it's easier than nonchalantly dropping the phrase "genocide
studies" into conversation, especially in a church.
"My whole life."
"Wow. That's so nice. I want to know the Lord like that."
I want to tell him I'm burdened by my faith. I want to tell him the
Bible he reads helped craft the genocide ideology that killed his
family. I want to tell him his church is named Victory Mission for a
reason. But I smile instead, grateful for his congregation's
hospitality.
It's no wonder, then, that the genocide came to fruition in the very
place where its message was first planted — the churches.
In the year 1900, Jesus, accompanied by German colonizers and then the
Belgian government, arrived in Rwanda in the form of a white
missionary. He held a Bible in one hand and a gun behind His back.
Instead of His usual parables about the prodigal son and the woman's
search for her lost coin, He wove tales about power, telling the Tutsi
people about their God-given right as superior humans. With this
God-given right came the ability to rule over their brothers, the
Hutus.
Tutsis, according to the widely held interpretation of the biblical
story of Ham, were made in the image and likeness of God, except they
had the misfortune of being clothed in skin the color of darkness. The
Hutus, though, were humans of a lesser breed, possibly made as an
afterthought on the last day of creation. Let the children come to me,
He told them, but only the Tutsi ones.
Later, after World War II, inspired by theologies about social
justice, Jesus and his Belgian disciples switched their allegiance to
the Hutus. The Cains of Rwanda yearned for revenge against the Abels,
and through the Church's guidance, their will would soon be done.
It's no wonder, then, that the genocide came to fruition in the very
place where its message was first planted — the churches.
Nyamata
Our guide points to a small crucifix resting on the bloodstained
altar. "This cross was used to kill people," he says.
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Next to the cross lie a machete, a few rosaries, and ID cards used to
differentiate Tutsis from Hutus. On the wall to the left of the altar
sits a statue of the Blessed Virgin Mary.
I wonder what horrors those stone eyes witnessed. How many died with a
rosary in their hand and her name lingering on their lips?
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners now and at the hour of
our death. Amen.
They were the sacrificial lambs, killed in communion with one another,
the body of Christ literally broken on the altar of the Lord.
Matted, soiled clothes of the dead sit in heaps scattered around the
humble wooden pews of the small church, as if anticipating one last
homily. Eventually, our guide gathers us near the back wall. He points
out the blood on the wall and tells us that the Interahamwe dangled
babies by their feet and bashed their heads into the wall. Then they
raped the children's mothers before finishing them off with machetes.
The sound of schoolchildren's laughter seeps through the
grenade-studded, open doors and reverberates off the bricks marked
with the remains of Rwandese children, children who are most likely
relatives of the ones playing outside.
Then our guide leads us downstairs to a glass case filled with bones.
In 2001, my parents took my sisters and me to Italy as part of a
church choir tour; it was the ultimate Catholic pilgrimage, even
concluding with an appearance by Pope John Paul II. Confused by the
Catholic Church's obsession with the remains of saints and popes, I
nicknamed Italy, "The Home of the Dead Bodies," an innocent
observation for an 8-year-old fascinated with history and the
intricacies of the Catholic Church.
But I was wrong. Rwanda is "The Home of the Dead Bodies." Except these
bodies are not relics to be fetishized. These bones are victims of
genocide. I imagine the thousands of bones and clothes of Nyamata put
on display at the Vatican, skulls gazing upward at the ceiling of
Michelangelo's Sistine Chapel. Would the world care then?
Ntarama
By the time we arrive in Ntarama on the same day, we are numb. It's
unfathomable that there is another church like Nyamata littered with
shattered bodies that once tilled and breathed and rejoiced among
these spectacular hills.
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Even here, between the decaying bricks and coffins filled with the
dead, it's still impossible to imagine. I think that is what frightens
me the most about this trip. I am here. And yet, I still struggle to
imagine Rwanda in 1994. What about the people back home? How can they
ever begin to imagine a time in history that only exists in their most
feverish nightmares?
Our tour ends in the former nursery school. Once again, our tour guide
points out the blood and brain mixture still sticking to the walls of
the building. Once again, he demonstrates how small, innocent bodies
were thrown against the bricks.
It is a different church. A different tour guide. Different souls. But
the same calculated method of killing. Our tour guide picks up a
stick; it must be at least seven feet long. He explains how the stick
was shoved inside a woman's body, reaching all the way to her head.
And then they killed her. I find myself thankful she died.
A group of villagers watches us process back to the bus. I avoid eye
contact with them, embarrassed that I have made a spectacle of their
home and their dead. "Now you come," their eyes seem to say. "Now you
come with your cameras and your passports. Well now it's too late."
Soon after our visit to Nyamata and Ntarama, I attend church with my
host family again. "He will save us. He will save us. He will save
us," the congregation chants. If there was a time for the Savior's
second coming, it was in April of 1994, but He never came. What makes
them think He will save them now?
Kibeho
"How old were you in '94?" Sister Macrine asks me as we walk towards
Kibeho Parish. I'm in Kibeho as a part of an independent study
project, researching the building's dual role as a memorial and active
church. I'm hyper-aware that this trip is a pseudo-pilgrimage, my
twisted, yet academically driven way of confronting my faith crisis.
"Only a year old."
"Ahhh, so young," she says half laughing.
"Do you know why it is still a church instead of a memorial?" I ask,
even though I know the answer. Kibeho Parish is not a memorial like
Nyamata and Ntarama because the Vatican is embarrassed about the
Church's complicity during the genocide. Instead, the Rwandan
government and the Catholic Church compromised, hiding a small
memorial behind locked doors. An open memorial would mean confessing
the Church's sins. And though they may promote the sacrament of
reconciliation, the Vatican doesn't always practice what they preach.
"I don't know," she says.
I can tell my obsession with the Parish confuses her, even pains her.
She can't understand why I'm not here to pray at the Sanctuary of Our
Lady of the Word, the church down the road, where in the 1980s the
Blessed Virgin Mary appeared to three Rwandan school girls, and at the
Holy Mother's request, the church was built in her honor. She can't
understand why I'm not like the rest of Kibeho's pilgrims who come
searching for divine intervention. If only she knew that I have come
to Kibeho hoping for a miracle as well.
She tells me she doesn't like going into the crypt. I assure her
multiple times that I can go alone, but she comes anyway.
"Don't cry," she says before we step down into the cellar filled with
shelves stacked neatly with bones.
White, lace-fringed curtains covering the shelves curl in the breeze,
revealing skulls that once bore the faces of Kibeho residents. I pull
open one of the curtains to find entire bodies encased in white
powder, similar to the victims of Murambi, a former vocational school
now a memorial. Small, patchy tufts of black hair cling to some of the
bodies' skulls, and even though the sight mimics Murambi, it still
surprises me; for some reason, I've always associated hair with life.
Next, she takes me to the Parish to pray. A plaque on the looming,
desecrated building states the church was established in 1943. That
same year, oceans away, the Nazis had already infiltrated remote
Polish towns, and erected chambers and barracks that would soon house
the Jews of Europe. Half a century later, Kibeho Parish would serve
the same function, except this time, the killers were so sure of
themselves they wanted God as their witness.
I that I would feel angry inside the building that betrayed more than
25,000 Tutsis. I thought I would be able to feel the spirits of the
dead, dancing around me, haunting the humans thoughtless enough to
ignore their presence. But I feel nothing.
I'm jealous of my classmates who came to Rwanda with no belief in God.
They have nothing to lose.
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